I said I love you, you said it too.
But the difference is, I didn’t lie to you.
I’m not saying I’m perfect, but I’m worth it.
If you don’t see it, then YOUR not worth it.
I’ve learned from my mistakes but I can be so insecure I repeat them, even when I know it’s wrong. I’m learning though, and trying, and fighting my feelings until it’s right. It’s all I can do right now…
High School Has Changed Me.
Maybe not in a crazy way like it has for others but I notice a HUGE change from the person I used to be until now.
Freshman year, I was concited and way to confident, I knew everything; or thought I did. Once I got bullied, I realized I had to change, not everything is about me. I’m not the prettiest person in the world, and just because I was confident didn’t give me the right to judge people. I chamged into a better person. I no longer judge a person with one glance. I give them the right to prove themselves to me. They don’t deserve my judgement; just like I didn’t deserve the judgement I got when I was bullied.
Sophmore year, I was forced to grow up. I had to make decisions for myself. I had to figure out what made ME happy, even if everything got fucked up in the end. I was put in real life situations. Go to his house or don’t go to his house? I knew something was going to happen but I went anyways and everything got messed up. It’s still messed up and he still acts like there is no care in the fucking world. But maybe he hasn’t through the ‘grow up’ phase?
Either way, I’m always going to be changing and I hope it will be for the better.
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